defined by our mistakes.

I’ve recently read an article - or 2, about how our generation today has become more narcissistic. According to studies done by psychologists, 18-19 year olds these days have become increasingly more self-obsessed. Statistics show that the number of narcissistic adolescents have doubled since i don’t know the last century. This really got me thinking. i mean, i’ve thought about how we are probably the most selfish organisms alive, and i have increasingly seen this come to pass in my own life. i think about conversations i have with people (and how many i’s this post shall have), and have realised that indeed most of the conversations i have with others are a) about them or b) about me. I mean sure there are those odd ones where we discuss the weather, the environment etc but honestly, who’s really interested in all that crap? In the end conversations always - well mostly - lead back to us. I think with the help of technological advances like tumblr, facebook, twitter to name a few, our perception of the world has narrowed, enabling us to become more narcissistic. Its quite troubling to say the least, i honestly never saw myself as selfish but now when i think of it and instances throughout my week, there are numerous if not many examples of conversations and thoughts that i’ve had, that have revolved around the 2 most selfish letters when put together - m-e.

having said this, i think i will definitely be more conscious of what i talk about, and if possible try to avoid talking about myself at all in a conversation. it really worries me that in the future, there is a possibility where i may not be concerned with anyone other than myself. the thought of it actually scares me, and i think what makes it scarier is the fact that it actually could very well happen.

    capital M-E.

yes i spent valentines hating it. why because it is so discriminative. society has made it into a fad which, although may be unintended, allows people like myself to feel somewhat bitter. in summary, valentines day is designed to make the single feel lonely. okay so you can spend it with your friends and i have completely no reservations in doing so but why not call it friendship day then ? or have a completely different day called friendship day ? why valentines ? i wish cupid shot himself in the ass so he’d know what it feels like to be single - not that being single is a bad thing. i really don’t know where i’m going with this, but i do know that i have a resentment against valentines day. call me pathetic, or just plain lonely but i simply cannot stand discrimination. yes, i am the biggest hypocrite and one day this will bite me in the butt. i know it but i guess now i don’t really give a damnn.

passion over consequence - since when did the latter take the lead ?

hm. so i guess patience wears off. and the desperate need for closure does too. i’m glad it came to this, now i just need to prevent myself from slamming the car into some other moving body or something stationary.

reckon we could die of anxiousness ? WOW. this tumblr thing has like. a button for replies if i insert a question mark.

? HEHE. and if i answer my own question it goes away. COOOOLL. it has made me realise that i tend to answer my own questions. :/ question marks are so indefinite ……. kinda unnerving to be honest. so, should i end this with one ?